The feeling - Rose

2"

mari amek measurement sket..*tapi nervous*

yea!

turun 2" inch

alhamdulillah :)

cek time frame sket..

ic..ic..within 2 months..turun 2"

so err..maksudnyer..average..1 month turun 1"

mungkin ini adalah hasil usaha mengamalkan makan malam yang ringan.

nasik ayam macam hari ni for dinner boley dianggap ringan jugak sebab ada satu lauk saja..hahahaha

nampaknya kena mengamalkan makan malam yang lebih ringan supaya impak penurunan " juga lebih cepat seperti yang diharapkan

ala kena track la usaha yang dibuat. senang sket nak monitor kan. chaiyok2!

gambatte

Pledge after raya :)

measuring tape is my best friend now. * paranoid mode *

turnover

Obviously, i have no discipline in writing this blog everyday. Too bad. I last blogged in June, and now its July! Time just goes super fast!

June was a big month for me. I've made  big and fast decisions for my life. And family. I hope everything goes well, insyaAllah. And even if it doesn't go well, i surely learnt a lot that month. And thats more valuable. I've also met various kind of people throughout the "big- decision-making" process, and some are my good friends now. Pretty interesting. I suddenly have a new network of friends. Oh ya, I've also managed to be home for Abah's birthday. I made tomyam (rasa? boleylaaa) for lunch (and forced everyone to eat), and then we had a simple dinner celebration at Pizza Hut (just the four of us), and no birthday cake.haha. Less sugar :) On the fun note, there was one day I went to Shah Alam to survey a new house. Well, i thought of finding somewhere nearer to the rest of my uncles, aunties, and cousins. But sadly, the developers office was closed. So i ended up playing something-like-saidina-game with my little cousin. Since the game was just between us, we ended up with lots of properties each. I owned KLCC, all the fast food restaurants, all the airports, all the highways. and was still left with a lot of money. Felt really good after that.hahaha. Should only play that sort of game with two people, baru menang besar!

Hope to have a great July! insyaAllah

PS: dinner today, Brunei's best kebab!

packing..the word that i hate

eversince i started boarding school, i hated the word "packing".

"Packing stuffs to go back to boarding school"
"Packing stuffs to go back to college"
"Packing stuffs to go back to go working somewhere far from home"

Its a process full of sadness :(

But its a process full of happiness when its packing time for the route back home :)

While i'm writing, my sister is actually in the process of packing her stuffs back to college.

And i hate it. I keep telling her "xyah la packing. kakak boley bagi adik degree apa apa adik nak". hehe.

Macam la boley kan.

reset

scene 1 (Saturday, on the way to Lambir)

Me: *finished up duty report, and went a bit "blur/weng"*

Friend 1 asked innocently: "apa beza Bungai and Lambir?"

Me: *thinking hard of what to answer*, then said "Bungai is like Lambir yang besar"

Friend 2: "kenapa x cakap Laut. Lambir is sungai"

Me: "tak teringat perkataan laut la tadi" hee.

scene 2 (yesterday,on Monday)

Me: Brunei colleagues are on leave tomorrow.

Friend: Leave? what occasion?

Me: Of course they'll be on leave tomorrow. Tomorrows Friday. They don't work on Friday.

Friend: *puzzled face* Tomorrow is what day again?

Me: Friday

Friend: Wid, today is Monday. tomorrow is Tuesday.

Me: *not puzzled at all face, thought it was funny with all the days mixed up already*haha

Conclusion: need to sleep. need to rest. some resetting is needed. cant wait for "home sweet home" tomorrow :)

crunching numbers

I'd say my work deals a lot with numbers, which involves generating, analyzing,validating, reporting..etc. No, not cash flows..but production numbers/figures/dates/forecast.

Crunching numbers is actually a skill, and that is something I realized.

What more interesting is the effort, and also the storyline behind those numbers. Hard work, zillion discussions & arguments, emotional moments, production facilities & well uptime, interruptions, sacrifice, tireless times, and many more matters --> translated to a single number.

Amazing.

When I first walked in as a Production Planner, i had this kind of feeling "what on earth am i doing? I suppose to deal with process simulation,drawings, P & ID (things that I'm much more exposed during uni days and practical period)..why all these plain numbers..".

Very wrong about that.hehe. So fast to conclude though i was only one week's old in the department, and only knew how to copy and paste stuffs. Can't even value those numbers. So..so..arrogant. :)

But it didn't take me long to realise how interesting my work was. Alhamdulillah.

And I realised that i enjoy more of crunching numbers or being a production planner/analyst than being a process engineer/simulator. More fun (lesser theory to relate to..i think..especially for malas people like me).

Waah, writing something about work on Saturday?? baru balik keje,,deswai :)

a walk to remember

9 years ago, i fell in love with this movie.."A Walk to Remember"

And i watched it again last week -_- 

Only Hope (one song from the movie that I truly admire);

There's a song that's inside of my soul

Its the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I will wake in the end when it calls
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving you all

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours i pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

cari sinar :)

In the office

Friend: Do you like your job?

Me: YES

Friend: Do you REALLY like your job?

Me: REALLY YES

Friend: I think i don't i like my job. i dont know.

Me: Err, we're doing the same thing. Chill la. Enjoy je.

Friend: Then why do you like your job, and i dont?

Me: Because we're different *sambil buat muka poyo*

Friend: Ok bye (back to work)

Me: Its 7.30pm laaa. Lets go home. 

Friend: Balikla dulu. Nak siapkan keje sket lagi.

Me: You dont like your job, then why stay late to do work? *kasik pressure sket*

Friend: Maksudnyer?

Me: It means you actually like your work, but u'r just a bit stressed today. Go back home and carik sinar.

Friend immediately packs his stuffs

Me: aik?

Friend: Nak balikla. Carik sinar.

I'm so influencial.hehe.

should i say yes or  no?

yay or nay?

*shivers*

nak tapi takut

ke 

tak tahu nak ke tak

konfius

bersedia ke tak? 

duit bukan segalanya..agak segalanya..tapi bukan segala-galanya

otak celaru

tak perlu celaru pon, saja nak celarukan

dah datang, nak larik

umur bukan penghalang

sekarang atau nanti?

haihhh..susahnya nak buat keputusan

*tulis ntah hapa2

top of the world

such a feelin's coming over me
there is wonder in most every thing I see
not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes
and I won't be surprised if it's a dream

everything I want the world to be
is now comin true especially for me
and the reason is clear, it's because you are here
you're the nearest thing to Heaven that I've seen

I'm on the top of the world looking down on creation
and the only explanation I can find
is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
your love's put me at the top of the world

something in the wind has learned my name
and it's telling me that things are not the same
in the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
there's a pleasing sense of happiness for me

there is only one wish on my mind
when this day is through I hope that I will find
that tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
all I need will be mine if you are here

I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
and the only explanation I can find
is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
your love's put me at the top of the world

I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
and the only explanation I can find
is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
your love's put me at the top of the world

kambing tonseng..i miss you

I pledge try to eat healthily

I need to, we need to.

But why is this "kambing tonseng" ( one of the yummiest food in Miri..for me la) haunting me..Lately, before i doozed-off, the menu would somehow "pop-up" in my mind..attracting me TO EAT THIS KAMBING TONSENG..or was it tongseng? can't remember.

rice with "kambing tonseng". teh tarik. :)

*Cholesterol* *Unwanted-fats*

Should i? should i not?

I just had a good dinner..which i think supports my wish of eating healthily..tomatoes as appertizer, and one big mug of milo + oats..not yummy i know.

will i be strong enough tomorrow?

la cucur bubuk

i do have allergies towards seafood, nuts, some spices..and i try as much to avoid eating/getting involved with all of them..its very very challenging.. TO NOT EAT!

there's this day sometime last week that one of my colleague "blanja" our section with one box of "cucur bubuk". Its musim "bubuk" now in Miri(bubuk is a small "udang" that people would use to make belacan, cencalok..). So, its the opportunity time to get fresh bubuk.

so my friends were being very nice..giving reminders.."x boley makan ni, nanti gatal"

so sad.

but dare to resist? its cucur with fresh bubuk/udang-kecik? of course..NOT! i gobbled a lot! :)
And...as usual i end up sneezing, and gatal-ness over my face..worth it anyway..hehe..it was soo yummy..

Ok, then there's this part...

A conversation with my friend..

Me: Jom try beli bubuk sendiri and buat cekodok sendiri nak?
Ecah: JOM!
Me: tapi tak pnah beli pon..pnah bli? Cana rupa bubuk ni? tadi dalam cekodok dia warna putih
Ecah: tak pnah beli jugak. warna dia pinky sket sblom masak kot.
Me: kita blasah jer la..x sabarnya nak beli

EXCITED!

So, after a few days, we tried our luck.

By just passing the stalls, we could smell the scent of bubuk already. Errr, not-very-nice-smell. Bought a few KILOS, and went back home. KILOS?? *tamaknyaa*

The smell made us so dizzy. I was driving, so i had no choice but to continue driving and babbling at the same time. My script: "the smell..the smell..busuknyerrrr..pening..pening..taknak beli bubuk dah"

We reached home, and was so hungry.

Thus, "projek pengurusan bubuk pun bermula". Our house on the other hand, turned to a house with the most-annoying-smell..grrrrrr.

We had to somehow ignore the smell anyway, project must still continue..(we must cook fast, to destroy the smell..thought it will work out..but NO, it didn't)

We made cucur/cekodok bubuk with levish amount of bubuk (aiyaa, cannot do business like this), some onions, no-egg (no stock at home, haha), a bit of curry powder, salt, and flour (nasib tepung ada). It turned out SOOOOO DELICIOUS!

Then, we made cencalok (kak ada's recipi)..

SOO KENYANG!

cucur bubuk, a jar of cencalok, chili sauce

On a good note, it was a fun experience..on the sad note, THE SMELL. i don't think i would like to go through the process again..maybe, the bubuk that we got might not be that fresh..oh well..first timer :)

Moment 3

rooftop. the secret hideout.
a ring. a burger.a sketch.a few friends.a moment to remember.

i want to run away..far far away

sad day in the office today :(

last week was a weak & sad week as well..with all the non-stop headache, demam, diarhea, heavy flu..felt a bit better during SKO Family Day, but then, flu-attack again.

despite being a loser today, i managed to work-out (fuiyyoo work out??) for 30 minutes..bersenam sampai lapar giler.then terus makan.booo

then, played around at looklet.com..one of my favourite pastime..best ooo mix match baju :)

oh well, need to cheer up fast..

thanks melda ahmad, ur song "putus" healed me in a way..though i sedih bukan putus cinta..relaxing melody :)

Moment 2

art class, every Tuesday.
partners.scored A all the way.flowers and words.

sick :(

not feeling well again

"pain pain go away, don't come again another day"

Moment 1

green and white school erasers..
from one table to another

fully awake :)

my goodness, i slept the WHOLE day yesterday. and i woke up feeling very happy.
mission accomplished. my brain suppose to be well-adjusted by now.

Anyway, just to bug away the guilt of sleeping the whole day (guilty la sangat konon), i did some reading on..erm.. 'the benefits of sleep' :) Let me share a bit here..(next time bila nak bantai tidur, boleyla bace balik post ni)

Source:http://www.better-sleep-better-life.com/benefits-of-sleep.html

Do you guys know that if we sleep less, we might face "sleep deprivation". And sleep deprivation may lead to fatigue, lack of motivation, moodiness, frequent colds and infections, memory problems, and increased risk of diabetes and heart problems.

And if we sleep well, the benefits are as below(well, vice versa of above);
a) sleep helps to repair your body..how? extra protein molecules will be produced to strengthen our ability to fight infections
b) sleep helps to keep you heart healthy..reduces the level of stress and inflammation
c) sleep reduces stress..it encourages a state of relaxation
d) sleep improves memory..while we sleep, a lot of memory organizing and correlation will take place..(mcm defrag )
e) sleep helps to control body weight issues..basically it helps to regulate hormons and control our appetite..
f) sleep reduces the chances of diabetes..our body have more quality time to process our glucose..(i've been advising my abah on this as well, he really doesnt discipline himself in having enough sleep, adoyai)
g) sleep reduces the occurrence of mood disorders..i guess this relates to the hormon-balancing phase that our body needs.

So, how much sleep do we need? From the source that i've read, below is the average hours..

Newborns (0-2 months):12-18 hours
Infants (3 months-1 year):14-15 hours
Toddlers (1-3 years):12-14 hours
Preschoolers (3-5 years):11-13 hours
School-aged children (5-12 years):10-11 hours
Teens and preteens:(12-18 years):8.5-10 hours
Adults (18+ years):7.5 - 9 hours

No wonder i woke up in a very happy state, i slept like a newborn yesterday..hahahhahahaha....

Limit @ Work

Its hard to believe that my limit of working "everyday" is only up to 22 days. Pfft.
More than that, i really can go mental. Hehe. Working mechanism will be more robotic after that. It doesnt matter how hard i push myself,there's still a funny weird feeling that would automatically re-activate itself on the next over-limit day. My mind,act and words somehow does not synchorize with each other anymore. Soo not in a good state.

and i dont know why.

I guess my foundation is not here with me. Thats a very lame excuse, but i guess its actually a norm. We all are human beings. And we all have hearts. We all have feelings.

Oh-kay. I need a deep rest now. Sunday needs a normal me. I need to do so much thinking on Sunday. Where's Saturday?? Saturday is equilize to night time. So brain, lets dooz off. We need a break.

Welcoming 2011

Happy New Year!!

1.1.11

Welcoming 2010...Alhamdulillah

God gave us the opportunity to experience another year..and insyaAllah..more years to come..
For 2011, i'd wish like all others do, that is to be healthy and happy always..all-> me, family, and friends.

And, I'd like to travel to Korea/India/Vietnam :)

Eh tu je ke resolution? Seriously, I dont know what to ask for..He gave me everything that i've ever wanted..only that i'm stuck in Miri (but i've accepted that its not a big deal afterall, miri is a very nice place).

oh, maybe need to work out some more $$$$, so that i can levish-ly travel. how meh? how? business?? what business? if not, hidupla berjimat-cermat amalan mulia. that would definitely help as well :)

Xoxo